Today i found out how someone can hide things for so long, and yet..
i don't know what can i do now, in order to maintain this trust any longer. i don't know how to expose you or make you pour out evrything, telling me why you did that. I just need the truth, be it you did it out of what-so-ever reason. Random thoughts came upfront telling me to just confront you and ask you for the book back, but.. no.
I don't wanna lose you as a very very best friend,
perhaps you did it out of again, (whatsoever reason)
i wish i wish, i hadn't knw it was you;
you're the last person i'd suspect on earth.
I was angry at first, swearing here and there a lil' just to make myself feel better.
but i felt really sad that i even shed in class.. "i have never suspect you, never.." )':

Honestly, why.
I acted like i didn't know about it the whole day. I didn't ask you, i don't know how. But everything's so burden deep down in my heart and stuck on my throat.
If you're reading, i hope this 'matter' won't meddle our friendship, but.. i'm just so disappointed. I fucking swear that i never suspected you.. i even turned to you when the book was missing. wtf, i feel like crying now.
just to let you know;
if you feel hurt, i'm 100000 times more hurt.
We're friend, tell me why.. i promise i won't blame/flare up. The reason is simple and true,
i don't want to lose you.